Taking the Maternity Plunge

I went on a mission this morning to find a new bra.  My boobs have been really uncomfortable and sad and I thought that a new bra would help.  I first went to this store called "Hot Mama" which used to sell lingerie.  They didn't sell anything that I needed - boo.

I then tried Target.  I was overwhelmed by the rows of bras and didn't really feel like trying anything on.  I tried on 2 34Cs and they looked awful.  I could not figure out what I wanted and felt like I wasn't going to find it there.

I decided to go to the mall.  I went to this store called Soma Intimates and found somebody who actually measured me.  Apparently I'm a 36C now, which is why the Target bras didn't work.  I got two bras, one nude and one gray for $35.00.  Score!!

As I was leaving the mall I passed by the mall directory.  I had previously thought that there were no maternity stores in the mall and that I would have to go to the Mall of America - which is an exhausting event.  The mall directory told me that the Gap Baby store included Gap Maternity.  I decided to check it out.

I walked in the store and started looking at things.  It looked cute, but like I'd never ever fit into them.  A sales associate walked up to me and asked if I needed help.  I looked at her clueless, feeling like a fraud.  I'm a miscarriage away from being an infertile going through IVF - what makes me deserve maternity pants away?  This is all going to go away and I just thought about how stupid I would feel returning them.

She explained the demi/full panel difference to me and what was cute.  I asked if it was too early and she confided in me that she was also very newly pregnant (a couple of days ahead of me).  Nobody knew so it was very hush hush but it felt good to me that she confided in me.  As she was leaving me alone to ring somebody up she said "My name's Andrea if you need any help"  I said "That's my name too!"

I decided on a sweater that honestly didn't look like a maternity sweater.  It just looked cute and on sale.
I then thought - f it - lets try on some pants.  I found a cute pair of demi panel jeans and tried them on.

OH MY GOD.

It was amazingly comfortable and my butt actually looked cute.  Then, my new friend Andrea informed me that they were HALF OFF.

So I got them.  Maybe this was tempting fate, maybe I'll have a give away if my ultrasound shows nothing, maybe this is "giving up" but I feel pretty good right now.

Here is me in my new outfit: