I have so much to blog about, each deserving of its own post. I'm going to just start posting and see where I end up ok?
The first order of business is something that some of my readers may notice. I am taking a bump break. If you read my blog you know that I've really had a hard time with my anxiety lately. I had a great therapy session on Thursday which really helped, but when I read about a late miscarriage last night I was back to square one.
The truth is that I could be that girl. I could show up on Wednesday and see no baby, or no heart beat and I will be DEVASTATED. And, unlike a lot of women who are in that situation, I won't be caught off guard because I know it can happen.
But reading about it several times a day won't make it any less hard, and it isn't doing any good.
I mentioned to my older sister off hand that I might need her to change my password. I didn't really mean it at the time, but I guess in a way every joke has some fiction. She didn't have to ask what my password is, she knew, and she knew that I really needed her to go in and lock me out of my own bump account.
This is what sisters do (btw that sister had a big week and the next post will be all about her).
So, to my bump friends, I will see you when I'm out of first tri, whether that be next week or next month. I will be following your blogs and missing your updates, but will be back soon.
You will get good news. I am confidant for you. I am very sorry that my bad news probably didn't help your anxiety, but as you said, the reality is that bad things do happen. I did not have good news at my own appointment this week, but I wish you the best of luck! Easier said than done, but try not to worry too much! I will be looking forward to your update.
ReplyDeleteGirl, don't even worry about the break. I had to do the same thing. It's a scary place over there! I'm sure all your bump peeps understand.
ReplyDeleteJust keep doing whatever you need to do to soothe your nerves. I was terrified every second of my last pregnancy - it might have been good for me to be locked out of some accounts (or Google) too.
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